Almost
But not quite
I’ve been on the cusp forever
Wonder what crossing finally feels like
Take me with you when you go
Or stay next to me please
I don’t like being alone, I don’t want my own company.
Maybe that’s the reason not being chosen gets me.
Makes me feel I’m not enough , I don’t measure up
You never knew when your self worth depends on others, you were setting yourself up for heartbreak .
Tired of living in the almost phase. Acceptance or approval were my pathways that never came through.
I have lost time and space chasing after people who were not meant to be . The almost relationship never transitioned into a real one.
Why didn’t I cut myself some slack? What fear of inadequacy made me accept rejection and still try so hard to seek approval?
I better wake up and embrace the truth that stared at me all long. I didn’t see it only because I didn’t want to.
Blinders on , life on hold, holding my breath until I can’t anymore.
I am done with holding me back. Done with waiting on loop. Done with doubting what I was worth.
Ready to transition from almost to already there. I am enough.
No lifelines out there, no one to save me. I am on my own and that is fine.
It’s all within you, light up the fire .
Remove the limits, you’re ready to fly.
Nabanita, your words always strike a chord. There’s a quiet power in the way you capture those in-between moments, the ache of almost, and the courage it takes to move through them. I love how you turn vulnerability into strength here. Thanks for sharing your heart and your journey so openly. You remind us all that we’re not alone in feeling this way, and that there’s hope on the other side. Keep writing; your voice matters.
I love the honesty in this. I can really relate with the feelings that you described. No one is coming for me is sharp line and I wholeheartedly agree. Only the self can be its own saviour. And that is more tha enough.